from here to there

For some reason, I always binge on the weekends. Maybe it's because I'm home more of the time with not as much to do (that's a lie, I still have a lot to do just a whole lot more access to food) or I'm out, so I can't stick to my usual meals. UGH. On a more positive note, I ran almost 9 miles this morning and felt great! My friend and I are training for a half marathon. I have done two before, but not well. I used to smoke a lot and that really hurt me when doing cardio. I never realized it until I stopped. Anyway, I have not smoked in over a year and feel better than ever! I was always the one huffing and puffing with my friend.. even when she hadn't run in a week. Now... it's the other way around! :) We started at my house and ran to my parents house. 8.6 miles to be exact and we kept a steady 10 minute mile pace. Several times, I looked behind me and she was a ways behind. I had to slowly jog, so she could catch up. Part of me wanted to keep running, but on the other hand, she always used to wait for me when I was in that position. Also, I'm not sure if I could do it alone. So either way, it was a fantastic run! Plus we still have a month to train for the half! On a more negative note, once we did get to my parents..... BINGE! They always have SO MUCH good food... and we always have none. So of course my excuse, "Shit, I just ran 9 miles I can eat whatever the fuck I want!" Yeah, we'll see how happy the scale is tomorrow. Today was 114.2. Ugggggggh. I made a promise that I wouldn't buy myself any clothing, bags, or shoes until I was 110. I'm going out of town for a wedding on Thursday and reaaaaaaally want to be able to go shopping. This means I have to be REALLY good this week to see if it's even possible. I did already call the hotel to ensure there is a gym. There is. :) Oh: need advice!!!! Anyone know of any good thinspo books for me to take on the plane? I already have plenty of magazines, but love reading especially about ana... so if you know of any good novels, please do share with me! Alright, I'm off to be productive before dinnertime. I hope everyone had a great weekend and stay strong!