well today was not as successful as yesterday. it started out fabulously. so i'm training to run a half marathon in april.. it's my 3rd one, but the first two i don't feel like i've done that well.. both times i only half assed the training.. never ran more than like 6 miles in training so consequently i was unable to run the entire half marathon.. i had to walk. a lot. if people on the biggest loser can run the whole half marathon so can i! this training so far i have done very dilligently. this past sunday was the first run i missed. today i was supposed to run 8 miles but i had parent teacher conferences starting at 8am lasting til 8pm. the gym opens at 530 so i ran 5 miles by myself.. usually i run with my running buddy who has been very helpful in keeping me motivated! also there is a tiiiiiiiiiiny competitive streak in me so i like to beat her in running :) usually she beats me but lately ive pulled ahead. anyway, we work at different schools so today we had to run by ourselves since i had conferences, she doesn't, and she refuses to come to the gym so early. so i was proud with my 5 miles. tomorrow i have to run 2 miles (will do in the a.m.) and then im going to do bikram yoga after school. is anyone into that? it's that really hot yoga which i completely fell in love with a couple times ago. so im going to do it tomorrow yay. the bad part of my day was not my parent teacher conferences. those were actually great. it was the food! all all the nasty nasty high caloric food! ugh! i mean i planned on eating... but twice??? and shit??? i ate all shit... and went back for more!!!! im never going to lose like this! i ate cream cheese cinnamin blintzes (3!), scrambled cheesey eggs, salad, fruit, then like shitty not even good tasting packaged banana bread (i had 2). what is wrong with me? like i was eating
purely just to eat. not for enjoyment. not for energy. not because it tasted good. just because. i have to stop that! tomorrow WILL be a better day. there will be beauty from this pain. thank you :)
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oooh you're a teacher? I wanted really badly to be a teacher, but somehow I've ended up with two years as an English major and now another year as a medical office assistant. how exciting though!
ReplyDeleteI hate when I cant stop myself from eating and the food I eat isnt even delicious!