ugggggggggh

so all my shit eating caught up to me.. i was 115.8 this morning! SICK! i was so close to being 112 and now i am freakin back up to 115.8... let's see what did NOT help this situation: ice cream i ate last night, bread and butter (wtf?? i never eat that!), and just shit food shit food shit food! UGH! today i am going to make vegetable soup and stick to that for dinner because that is likle 43 calories per cup and very very filling and i make an enormous batch that lasts me forever soooooooooo hopefully that will work. .also ia m going to do bikram yoga to try and sweat out some nasty pounds, ugh this is so frustrating. on a more positive note... this morning i walked to the gym (1.3 miles away), did my kickboxing class, and walked home.. i would have jogged it but i have a 10 mile run tomorrow so i have to save my knees for that. ok im gonna go get on some laundry and vegetable soup cooking. hope yall are doing better than me :( and i have been so down these past few days.. i knew this was coming. sad day.